Of Birth and Poetry

[At seven degrees below zero (F.) it’s way too cold for fly-fishing; there’s enough artificial flies tied up and secured in little boxes, so it’s natural for me to have myDSCN5893 thoughts go wayward on this post, a meditation on my daughter’s birth, a Valentine’s thing…]

Our first-born, a boy, came to us the night before our small-town literary group was holding its monthly meeting. Four years later, our second, a girl, was born an hour after that same literary group had ended its activity for the evening.

My wife, who’d started labor earlier that day, decided, what the hell, she would go to the poetry reading with me. If her bodily contractions quickened dramatically, we would shoot on over to the nearby hospital and check ourselves in.

We were glad for the less-than-satisfactory reading and the chance to speak with old friends. Eventually we drove ourselves to the cool indifference of the hospital’s delivery room. As my wife got hooked up to the fetal monitor, I reached for the opiate of television, like millions of uneasy husbands before me, and observed the action of a New York Yankees game.

Mind and body, changed to the consistency of luke-warm Jello, rejected the ball game and forced me to shut off the contrivance.DSCN5905

Our doctor was busy coaxing someone else’s baby into the world. I checked with my wife. Her vital signs were good. The monitor suggested that our young one had the heartbeat of a white-tail on a mission.

By 10:30 p.m. the doc declared that he’d had a helluva day and it was time to move things along– to break the sac, to burst the dam.  My wife didn’t like the idea, preferring to wait it out. The tension mounted. I figured that whatever would happen had already been placed in the hands of fate, with specialists in all their expertise and fallibility. No need to show concern. The hospital staff seemed to shuffle about with confidence and thoroughness.

A plastic hook appeared and wavered. Water broke. My wife began to sweat, to push, to breathe Lamaze through narrow gaps in her teeth, stabilizing the moments in a frenzy of no return.

The baby appeared too rapidly, and the staff went reeling for equipment. A squirmingDSCN5943 body shot into practiced hands of one with barely enough time to adjust his gown and mask. The child’s umbilical cord had been wrapped around the neck but, as luck and skill would have it, no lasting damage would be done.

I was speechless, all expectancy and nerves. I heard, “It’s a girl this time,” as if I’d never before considered that possibility. She was being cleansed and studied in a bath of terrible fluorescence, an infant foreign to me, severed from the womb, a healthy eight-pound body from our body.

Naively I began to wonder whom she looked like. For now she didn’t look anything like me or like Leighanne, my wife. Thank god she didn’t look like somebody’s repairman or a questionable friend. Eventually I came to realize that the wonder isn’t in a child’s appearance. It was in the touch, reception. In the miracle of birth.

My wife was losing blood, and the doctor sewed her up quickly. When I saw that she was stabilized I slipped away and dropped some coins into a payphone, blurting the news across the miles.

DSCN5950I met some friends at a neighborhood tavern, friends who’d been waiting there since the poetry session had ended. Actually the friends had been standing on the parking lot of the bar because the young daughter of a poet friend hadn’t been allowed to come inside with her father. Undaunted by this stand against youth and family, we stood around our vehicles in the midnight hour, talking and drinking and having fun.

We didn’t know it at the time, but complaints had been lodged against us by the bartender or by neighbors, or by everyone around. I was accepting cheap cigars of congratulations when a city cop pulled up beside us.

We were breaking the “open container law” and, according to reports, were disturbing the Maple City peace. From behind the policeman’s driver seat, a caged German shepherd snarled and pressed its fangs against the window. Good old Tom S., irrepressible as ever, began to chitchat with the animal.

I explained to the enforcer that our gathering was a mere celebration of my daughter’s arrival in the world and in his fair city. That was all it took. The officer stuck his hand through the opened window and clasped my own. His jowls shook when he smiled and said, “Congratulations, man, and best wishes to ya.”DSCN5954

We departed for a visit to the hospital. It was way past the traditional social hours for the place. My wife had her own room now and kept the nurses bustling. No one was allowed to see her, other than myself, but the staff was too busy to harass the people with me.

We peered through the glass walls of the baby ward. Which of the eight or nine tiny souls asleep on those beds had come here as a result of some action I’d participated in long months before? We decided it was the little one in pink, the one closest to our vantage point. I meditated on the presence of a human being only 52 minutes old, then stepped away for a goodnight to Leighanne.

My friends dispersed. My brother and I heard the call of Jack’s Bar and retreated to its pool tables for a whiskey and a beer.DSCN5958

Surely there was poetry in the whole event, beyond any coincidence of a reading and a birth that night. Surely there would come a bundle of words, a phrase of music, someday far down the line.

It would come on a day like this, a cold winter night with my daughter (now in her 20s) in a warm house, and my wife in these rooms, as well.DSCN5944

About rivertoprambles

Welcome to Rivertop Rambles. This is my blog about the headwaters country-far afield or close to home. I've been a fly-fisher, birder, and naturalist for most of my adult life. I've also written poetry and natural history books for thirty years. In Rambles I will mostly reflect on the backcountry of my Allegheny foothills in the northern tier of Pennsylvania and the southern tier of New York State. Sometimes I'll write about the wilderness in distant states, or of the wild places in the human soul. Other times I'll just reflect on the domestic life outdoors. In any case, I hope you enjoy. Let's ramble!
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4 Responses to Of Birth and Poetry

  1. Brent says:

    I can’t imagine how frigid it must be up there. We had a high of around 18, but with sustained 30-50 mph winds, putting our windchill well into subzero temps. I’m sure the woodstove is a comfort today, although I don’t envy refilling it. Nice post!

    • Thanks! It’s a woodstove day, for sure. We’ve had a temperature HIGH of less than zero. Had 10 below for the morning and, tonight, headed for close to 20 below. These are readings that don’t include the wind factor, which is substantial.

  2. Bob Stanton says:

    Ah, the “open container law”, the scourge of many a reveler. A lovely account of the daughter’s birth, Walt, and stay warm! As cold as it is here, I can’t help but think of friend of mine who’s in New Hampshire right now, waiting to ascend Mt. Washington in the morning, weather permitting.

    • Climbing Mt. Washington in the morning?? Holy crap, Bob, that sounds suicidal to me, I don’t care what kind of high-tech gear and clothing are involved. That summit is cold in the best of weather. Hopefully your pal will be OK, and doesn’t resort much to a whiskey flask. Take care, and thanks for weighing in.

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